Poolesville, MD (PRWEB) January 11, 2013
Most children imagine what they will be when they “grow up”: a pop star, an astronaut, perhaps an Olympic athlete; some, just want to be thin. According to the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA), The Center for Mental Health Services (CMHS), offices of the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services, 95 percent of those who have eating disorders are between the ages of 12 and 25. However, at the tender age of eight, author Jessica Cleghorn already aspired to be thin. Her newly published book, titled Disturbed, is but a glimpse into her downward spiral and her hesitancy to grasp what she so desires: normalcy.
Cleghorn was an unfortunate child who discovered the decayed attractiveness of an eating disorder, hatred for her physical appearance, the woes of insomnia and bipolar II disorder, and the sick decision of a suicide attempt. For 13 years, she managed to wear the mask of deceit, fooling family and friends into believing she was a normal child, a normal teenager, a normal young adult. Her binging, purging and fasting habits were hidden behind a busy schedule and four years spent living away from home for the duration of her college career. She kept her atrocious body image secret because she believed no one would want to listen to her moan about how she felt about her body.
An excerpt from Cleghorn’s poignant writing in Disturbed:
“An eating disorder is a demon. Because it haunts you. And you believe in it and you think it is normal. But it isn’t. And people will tell you that these things you are seeing and feeling aren’t normal. These things you believe in are torturing you, sending you to madness, and they slowly kill you. And when the heart of your sanity stops beating, this demon drags you straight to Hell and nothing can save you. You should have exorcised that demon. Or at least repented because once you go in as deep as I have, there is nothing in this world that will keep you from falling deeper.”
Self mutilation was a sweet release from the pain of living as a tortured soul so wrapped up in the ideals of the female body but insomnia and the roller coaster episodes of bipolar II disorder brought out the worst in her and introduced her to suicidal thoughts which ultimately led her to a suicide attempt at 18 years old. While she thought her finger had only teased the flame, her entire being had been thrown into the fire.
From mid-September to mid-October of 2009, Jessica had been introduced the hardest task and rite of passage she had ever faced—being admitted to Residential Treatment. She had only herself to blame for turning herself into what she had become. Although she gave it her all to resist treatment and recovery, there was only one thing she so desired, and that was some sense of normalcy, but she has been worn, embittered, and welcomed into the morbid nature of the world and on cold days, it was pretty cozy living in her disturbing little universe.
Evocative and empowering, Disturbed is a disquieting disclosure about one young woman’s journey through hell and back. Cleghorn has courageously stepped out into the open and shared her life to readers, hoping to save another soul apart from hers who need redemption from a demon that goes by many names like bulimia and anorexia. This is one story that may make sense of the madness many young American women experience.
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About the Author
Jessica Cleghorn is a graduate of St. Mary’s College of Maryland with a B.A. in anthropology. People would most certainly find her huddled in the corner of a coffee shop reading a romance novel or American Anthropologist. A resident of the Washington metro region, she still considers herself a tourist of the capital. She is currently taking courses to become a professional makeup artist.
Disturbed * by Jessica Cleghorn
Publication Date: 12/29/2012
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